"Some people come into your life as blessings, Some people come into your life as lessons." - Mother Theresa.
Today was a great test for my new spiritual awareness. I was set with an emotional challenge. I felt deceived by a colleague at work and had to decide whether I would pull out from a commitment I had made with them or put my emotions aside and provide an unbiased well thought through calm and strategic contribution to the commitment. Normally in a situation like this I would talk to as many people as I could, gather everyone’s ‘advice’ when really I was seeking validation that my feelings of deception and frustrating were justified and how terrible this person has been to do such a thing to me, enter my latest victim story. Then I would enter the commitment with a frame of mind that I was going to prove how right I was and seek retribution to the deception. I would then walk away filled with fear that I had sabotaged my relationship with said colleague and be disgusted by my rampage. So when I got the word today of what had happened I had a small but controlled vent to my beloved who is the ying to my yang and so nonchalant to my little outbursts. I then thought about who would be best to give me a single piece of advice, and called a friend who naturally removes emotion from any business situation. I purposefully only gave him facts and detailed how I felt rather than focusing on the downfalls of my colleague. Throughout the day the upcoming event was on my mind, would I be able to rise above and be the emotionally mature person I wanted to be, to be open minded rather than determined to be right, physically I felt a little sick. Then I had a moment of clarity. The universe has presented me with a similar situation so many times in my life its hard to believe I have responded in the same way so many times, over and over again. Someone out there must be hitting their head against a wall, when will she get it! There has to be a lessons in this emotionally charged situation, what could it be, and what could the gift be? Tonight as I write I am proud of myself, I walked through the event with a smile on my face, a steady calm breath, an open mind and could feel my heart radiate. Regardless of the overall outcome, regardless whether there was deceit or not, those are someone else’s life lessons, mine was to learn to control my reaction, not the situation and open my mind to the concept that just because my opinion has been voiced does not mean it will be followed. Comments are closed.
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